Monday, August 14, 2006
100% pissed off, really, pissed off.
Ok.... its been a very long time since i have blog, like 10 days lol. So many things have happen between these period of 10 days, and i shall write out it, even feelings, or what so ever.
On august 11th, friday, the day when i got back my O level chinese result, its just sianz man, i only got like, a freaking B4, wth, i was expecting B3 or higher, and when i saw the result, my temper was really burning hot. Really difficult to control my temper, so went around cursing my results, and i was really envious with people who got distinctions.
Actually, i really deserved this type of shitty results, as firstly, i never even studied anything for chinese, and my grandmother knew that my standard of chinese is atricious, which i cant be bothered with her at first, but when i told her about the result, she said she knew i cant get A1, as she always have problems understanding my chinese, lol. Anyways, now have to really mug hard, haiz.
Yup, thats the only interesting thing that happen between the 10day periods, lol. Oh ya, and soccer on tuesday 8th august, after being rejected to play basketball with people from 4E, went to kick some soccer with my friends, it was fun, but as usual, suffered all sorts of injuries, especially on the face, ouch.
Just came back from the doctor, lol, got eye infection on my left eye, which made my eyes red, looks kinds bloody but the doctor say its nothing serious, so expect to see me back at school tml.
Okay, the feelings part. Seriously, i think theres a lot, i mean, A LOT of problems with the people around me. Its like most of them are trying to avoid me or something, i try to talk to them but most of them give me the f***ing attitude, b***h.
Now, when i always try to find someone to chat with, they avoid me, wtf, although some of them will talk back, but the rest, wtf man, WTF. I try to get things back from friends, wait for a testimonal that was promised for me on friendster, go out together with REAL buddies, other than people who backstabs, talk crap at me, man, all these are so F***ing hard to accomplish. F*** big time man.
I wonder, does these people only want to know me as someone from maris stella high, or a good old freind to know by, is it so F***ing hard to even have a chat with me, is my face so F*** up that no F****ers wants to talk with me. Pls, just talk with me if possible. I AM F***ing LONELY!!! Damn.
Yup, thats all the freaking time i have, and if u feel guilty or watever shit, then talk to me, i am just a lonely F****er, i am human too, i need so accompany from friends, people i know, damnit. And no, i am not going to do something nutty because of this.
P.S. Find a time to have a chat with me, ESPECIALLY the people i know. Im bored...... need someone who is considered a gd friend of mine to talk with me, haiz, just bored.....